August 15, 2010

  • I'm kind of bummed. And the reason why is so silly, it's almost embarrassing, so I guess it's ok for me to write about it here since no one really checks Xanga anymore. In the final weeks before my OAT, I started watching an anime series called Yu Yu Hakusho. It was a favorite from back when I was in high school, but I never got a chance to finish it and I missed a lot of episodes. Anyway, the plan was, I would study hard and limit myself to a few episodes a day before the exam, and then just indulge in a marathon of all the remaining seasons as soon as I was done with the exam. Unfortunately... I didn't pace myself very well, so that by the time I had finished studying for and taking the OAT, I only had the final two episodes left. I think I'm beginning to rant... but anyway, my point is, I really really liked that anime and now I'm kind of bummed that it's over. It's such a well written story with the perfect mix of plot, background, character development, humor, sappiness, and romance. It's not like the Dragon Ball series, where the characters spend 1/2 the season powering up and then 2 episodes in battle. It's not like Bleach, which throws out suggestive romantic hints between several characters but never follows through or expands on those relationships. When I first started watching Yu Yu Hakusho, I was too young to appreciate the complexity of the characters and the depth and meaning of their relationships. Being older and more insightful, I have a deeper appreciation for the story now that I'm watching it again. Not only that, but now that I have a better understanding of myself and am more set in my identity, I am beginning to see why stories like these appeal to me, and what that says about me. I think that anime like this captivate me because, even back before I knew it or understood it, a deep part of me was created in such a way that I long for adventure, people to share that adventure with, and a purpose for adventure. I think that whatever happens in life, I would like to live an exciting life. It's ok if there are trials and hardships, as long as there are times of fun as well. It's so sad, even when I'm learning about rainforests while studying biology for the OAT, I'll start daydreaming about exploring the jungle to discover new species or going on some grand adventure like that. But of course, even the best adventure would be pointless if there were no one to share it with. Another element of these stories that always draws me in are the bonds that are formed. Whether it's friendship or romance, there's always a deepening level of trust and intimacy. I think I long for that too, and that's why I resonate so strongly with these stories. Finally, there has to be a sense of purpose. In a fictitious world, it's easy to simply have purposes such as rescue the girl or save the world from bad guys and evil companies. In real life, things are rarely so black-and-white. There aren't any masterminds of evil, and the struggle between good and evil seems more political and opinionated. Still... I wouldn't mind being in a situation where I'd get to do something heroic.

    *sigh*
    Someday... I will fight for what I believe in, overcome numerous trials and deepen friendships in the process, rescue my princess, and change lives for the better. pleased

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    ....... .... .. .  .   ...Maybe I should prayerfully consider going on a missions trip. Maybe that's why I was created this way- to go on missions trips, where I will find adventure, form bonds, and do meaningful work. Maybe that's why I want to go into optometry; it will allow me to go on medical missions and yet provide a stable life back home, giving me the best of both worlds... Maybe I'm thinking too much.