August 11, 2008

• It's late. But these are nice, fun, halcyon days. Post summer school and before school, filled with basketball, working out, and mostly, indulging in Bleach. I've been watching so much Bleach that I've become emotionally attached to the characters... that's probably a bad sign. So anyway, why am I up late tonight? It started with me looking at someone's oldest Xanga entries. I do that sometimes... I hope people don't find it wierd. Anyways later I decided to be more productive and to go back and mak a bunch of protected entries public. It's been my things-to-do-list for a while (a while meaning like years). See, a long time ago, before the age when Xanga had things like "friend lock" and "Xanga lock", my old pastor Xanga-stalked me and used what I wrote to slander me, persecute me, and just do a bunch of nasty things. But I was really attached to Xanga and of course didn't want to get rid of like a years worth of entires, so I spent hours and hours going back and making every public entry into protected ones. Anyway, that time has long gone, and I've decided to make those old entries public again. That way, me or anyone can use the little date jumper drop down thing on the left to jump to any date of my past.

  Going through my old entries, I am constantly reminded of what an idiot I used to be. In the November 10, 2003 entry, I said that I would like to be married at the age of 22. Wow. I'm 22 now. Back then I thought 22 was so old, and a prime age to be married. Man that just makes me feel so old. At the same time, I know I'm way too young to be married or anywhere near it.

  My entries were more entertaining back then, and some were a bit outrageous. January 21, 2004 is a short entry that's terrible yet shamefully funny.

  Man, going through these entries are making me nostalgic. I'll admit I had to use a thesaurus to find that word. I thought it was pronounced (and spelled) "noglostic." From now on I will try to not use words I can't spell. Man, that severely limits my writing vocabulary. Anyways, getting off track, sorry. If you guys don't know, I can be a little (just a little) sentimental sometimes. Sometimes I think about friends who were very dear to me, dearly loved friends from the past. I wonder if these friends ever realize how much they meant to me, how much they still mean to me, and how much I think about them from time to time even now. Anyway, despite how I seemed to mention female friends so much in my old entries (man I was an idiot), one friend dear friend whom I've lost touch with is Matt. Matt and I used to be best friends in high school. He was probably the first real best friend I had. Sadly, after a series of moves and fights, I've completely lost track of him. His number's changed, his screen name's changed, where he lives and who he lives with has changed, and maybe even his last name changed (at least his mom's has). I think my only hope of ever finding him again is if he decides to make a facebook, though that'd still be a long shot. Did you know you can search for facebook friends using your AIM buddy list? Not that that'd help me, but I thought it was pretty amazing- technology.

  Tonight I discovered that I live really close to a lighted outdoor basketball court. When I first heard, I thought it was like heaven. But somehow, when I got there, I didn't have much enthusiasm while playing. It happened even before Martin started drilling me and working me to the ground to do side shuffles and back paddles. I hope I'm not losing my love for basketball...

  I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm stealing this from an old Xanga entry, but everyone, please please fill it out for me:
  1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
  2. Am I loveable?
  3. How long have you known me?
  4. When and how did we first meet?
  5. What was your first impression?
  6. Do you still think that way about me now?
  7. What do you think my weakness is?
  8. Do you think I'll get married?
  9. What makes me happy?
  10. What makes me sad?
  11. What reminds you of me?
  12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
  13. How well do you know me?
  14. When's the last time you saw me?
  15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
  16. Do you think I could kill someone?
  17. Describe me in one word.
  18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
  19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
  20. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?

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